My GD!

Today we had our group discussion ...The topic for discussion was Should Inventions be for the comfort or for the essentials of common man...!Hmmm well i am not that kind of person who speaks spontaneously on any topic before any one.At the same time i dont remain dumb.But god knows what happened today but i dint at all speak properly.Not that i was scared too...I was stammerring ....How much i tried to speak continously ....but couldnt.I have this tendency to underestimate my capabilities and i always feel that evryone around me is better than me.I really dont know when n how i am gonna get over this.Its not that i dont have ideas regarding the topic ...Its not that i lack fluency in english...Because of my todays performance i totally lost my confidence ...How much i thought i should speak well before the GD that much i splooshed it.I guess the things i should be doing to improove myself would be to speak and express my view points regarding a topic when some one converses rather than just listening to them n keep quiet .I should start believing that i am no worse than others .Nd ofcourse start reading a bit more so that i have an idea on different topics happening.I think the main reason why i did badly today was that i kept telling myself that you are bad nd u shud do well...rather is houldnt have bothered about it so much and should have spoken whatevr was in my mind.But whatever has happened is over cant do anything much about it.So let me better myself and crac the next GD.

Itz my birthday!!

Well donno wat to say if i am happy or sad ....but itz my birthday.It had a good start with my roomies arranging a cake for me the yummy yummy one it was really sweet of them for having done that.I was happy about having the cake but at the same time i dint have my dear ones ...my parents,my brother,my best friend Ramya and my my boy friend with me .That really made me sad bcos i expected atleast one of them to be present.Then I had received calls from all my friends n ofcourse also from people whom i expected wouldnt call too...so that made me happier cancelling out the previous sadness.....Then i was a bit sad bcos i dint have a new dress for my birthday ...jus bcos my parents who always came along with me to buy me my bday dress gave just money this time for me to buy the dress for myself.But i was ok with it ...as i was wearing my favourite salwar to my office ...n thats the first time i was wearing salwar to office ....(bcos evryday i onli wear pants).Then i was happy bcos all my friends out here wished me a very happy birthday .But then i was sad bcos even on my birthday i am just doing my routine work.I actually had a dream about celebrating my birthday ....which i was dreaming since last year but even a bit of my dream dint come true.Thats the thing which has made me sad ...really really sad.But itz ok after joining the my internship here in this office after enetering this so called commercial world....i jus realised that things just dont work the way we wish it to happen.I am trying hard to accept that fact because in this world nobody has time for anybody just work takes the first priority ....n meeting the deadlines the main aim.Then i thought i would guss work for half day n spend time outside ....But again as i said things dont work as i want them to happen ....i dont have company with me to freak out along with me...bcos evryone has WORK to do.Then i thought may be we will go to some disco or pub at the end of the day....But no ..... how can things work my way....evryone has WORK to do n their own priorities....finally i have to settle down to normal work at office till night have dinner as i usually do n believe myslef that it was so much fun.People might just say that i am feeling bad about nothing n birthday is no special day...itz afterall an other day....All u guys are right ....learnt from experience that dont ever expect anything from any one or any day....just take things how they go.I thank all the people who wished me atleast for me to feel that ya it z my birthday....