Treated like a queen!!

Just imagine some one likes you so much that they cant see you sad even for a moment...they would do anything to make you happy....they are there to take care of you every moment ......they are there to buy you evrything that you want.....they are there to listen to when you want to talk....they are there to jump up in joy when you are happy ...they are there to feel bad along with you when you are in distress....they are there to make you laugh even by doing the silliest of things if you enjoy it....they are there to motivate you that yes you can do it....they are there to warn you that what you are doing is wrong and may lead you in to troubles......they are there to build confidence in you saying i am with you evry moment just go ahead....
Believe me its just amazing to have a such a person in life...because i am experiencing it.I really want to thank god for giving me so much happiness in life and that person too who makes me feel on the top of the world and treats me like a queen.

silence when hurt!!

Since childhood i have this habit of remaining silent when some one hurts me.....this habit of mine had lead to many adverse effects.It has always been that whenever i am hurt by anybody i would never be able to tell the person or any one as to who hurt me or why i was hurt..just for the simple reason that i used to feel and even feel now that the person would feel bad for saying that u hurt me.Just to avoid that person from feeling bad i used to keep it to myself.But that sadness couldnt be kept inside as one cant hide feelings ...that sadness used to vent out in the form of silence.This i know would have hurt many people as they bang their head as to why i was not talking ...and tested the patience of many people as they would be tired of asking why i was silent.Still knowing all the facts that the person wouldnt understand until i tell it has never been easy for me to tell the reason for my sadness.I dont know if anyone else would be going through this but trust me i am finding very difficult to get over it when i thouroughly know that i am hurt and i am hurting the other person.

coding and life!!

Its been five months that i am spending my life in coding coding n more coding at hp labs,bangalore.I have come here for my internship for 6 months.In the beginning it was like greek n latin as i never wud be able to understand anything as i have been a EEE student and had never known anything about coding except for few syntax in C.Life was hell their was tension evry time if i would be able to complete the given work.I used to wonder why there where people whose life had nothin but coding....But apprehensively i had laid my hands on it...
Believe me the first few days where hell as there was no one to help and i wouldnt know how to proceed.Then i started getting in to ease with it and started learning in bit by bit.Ofcourse i should thank many people who helped me in the process...who always reminded me that one should never give up and one cant become an expert in a fortnight.There are hell lot of things that i had learnt.To start with firstly....There where inumerable situations which prooved that Nothing is impossible.....and one should never ever loose confidence in oneself.At times i used to get stuck for something like 10 to 15 days trying to break my head over as to what went wrong in the code ...probably a guy well experienced would have solved it in 1 or 2 days.And there where situations like ... after thinkin loads n getting irritated with my work and myself i realise its a silliest of silly mistakes.Trust me there where many instances when i felt why the F*** am i doing this.....or why am i this dumb in life....??And the worst part of it is the person above you just wants the work to get done irrespective of what you are going through.Infact i even learnt how different people are and how managers tackle with different situations .And the i also found the secret of getting things done...which also was told to me by my friend...That is when you are stuck at some point and not knowing where to move to...jus chill and freak out ...go for a movie...or have Beer....and come back in the morning ...believe me it worked with me always.For all those people out there who are worried as to why their code isnt working properly believe me that code is the last thing to worry about...jus ENJOI MADI.Last year at the same time i was reading the blog of a gal who did her internship here and wrote that she is jus waiting for this internship to get over.I wondered why she was talkin like this when she gets her stipend ...work for only 5 days a week and no tests like BITS...But now i realise i too have stepped in to her shoes ..i am jus waiting for all this to get over soon so that i get back to bits and njoi my campus life which is a bliss.